It seems like it's been forever since I've written or shared anything on here.  As you may have guessed I took a little time off for the summer.  While it was unexpected I did greatly enjoy it and am now refreshed and ready to get back to one of my most beloved spaces.  

I had planned on writing all summer, balancing days of play and evenings behind the computer screen.  Life had other plans.  So, I followed that ever so subtle (and sometimes not so subtle) current of my life; the beckoning to deepen, to unfold, to play.  This summer was one of new beginnings, reawakening, and trust.  From changing my diet to switching up my medicine and even a new job thrown in the mix, there have been many twists and turns.  Looking back I can see why I simply had to take a break from the processing (writing) in order to presently take in all the luscious nuggets being sent my way.  Honestly, I can't wait to share some of them with you.

Today though I just wanted to say hello.  Getting back into this writing thing feels both a bit overwhelming and exciting.  I have so much I want to say that I don't know where to begin and I'm afraid if I don't just blurt it all out nothing will ever get said.  That's the problem with having a mind that goes a hundred miles a minute.. the blurting or the passing of thoughts before you get to articulate them.  So, I'm going to do my best this fall and winter to sit in each moment, being present, real and vulnerable.  I feel a new version of me emerging.  I'm not exactly sure what she looks like yet. I think she's the little girl in me that wants to twirl and twirl and twirl, hoping friends will join in.  I think she's the woman in me that wants to be seen and appreciated for all the light and value she adds to this world.  I think she's the mom in me that really just wants to play.  I think she's the goddess in me whose deepest desire is for her lover to see her, mind, body, and soul as sacred.  I have a feeling that some of you know exactly what I'm talking about.  As vulnerable as this feels, I want to consciously share more of myself with each of you because I truly believe that vulnerability connects us.  I think admitting our fears and wondering if we're good enough makes us more human.  I think screaming "fuck" at the top of our lungs every now and then makes us honest.  I think admitting that we don't always have it all together creates space for others to do the same.  I think celebrating our triumphs is infectious and I think loving ourselves is priority number one.

This is an interesting phase for me.  I don't feel especially dark.  Like I said, it feels more like an emergence, or perhaps a re-emergence.  I think most of the darkness has passed, or maybe that is just my hope, because it was very dark for quite a while.  I guess only time will tell.  All I know is that I feel a stirring inside and I want to shine.  So, that is exactly what I'm going to do. May we find strength in vulnerability and connection in the light.  May we learn through our pain and may we realize that we can learn through joy too.  Namaste